Too Many Thoughts In My Head

October 29, 2009 by · Leave a Comment
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I swear, I need a brain catheter. I have so much in my head that I need to get out, but I don’t have time to blog it all. So I usually wind up not blogging at all, and it all gets mashed up in an internal traffic jam.

I guess I’ll do one big update today, then just commit to blogging in bits here and there as the mood strikes me. That’s what I used to do on Diary-X, but for some reason having an actual blog, in this format, makes me feel like I have to write little essays and keep it formal and limited.

But hey, it’s *my* blog, right? What I really want is to be able to do little silly, simple updates whenever I want, so that’s what I’m going to do. I’m also going to change the layout & format a bit in the near future. But I digress. Here is my big update!

CHARLIE

First and foremost on my mind lately is Charlie. He is 7 (and a few months)-years-old now and in the second grade. He is in a program called “Cascade,” which is a “special education” program for kids with severe behavior and emotional problems due to developmentaly disability, health impairment or other issues. He was recently re-evaluated, and his official diagnosis has changed from “Developmentally Disabled” to “Health Impaired.”

Actually, I’m not even going to go into it much about Charlie. It’s too hard/emotional and there is too much to explain. He has problems that are organic and he is still undergoing testing. He will be evaluated again at Children’s Hospital early next year, and I expect their diadnosis of ADHD and ODD with possible Autism to change to Autism with ADHD & ODD. (ODD is Oppositional Definace Disorder)

He is really good at reading & writing, which I suspected he would be, even though his speech cognition (how well he understands what is said to him) is only 16th percentile (to be average would be 50th percentile). This is something that happens sometimes with autistic people, even in extreme cases. They can’t communicate verbally, but they can write like a college professor. Charlie, fortunately, only has the verbal impairment to a smaller degree. And I have it a bit myself. I definitely communicate better in e-mail than I do on the phone or in person. I’m really not surprised he is doing so well with reading.

Anyway, he is getting tall and is a bit lanky, as his meds surpress his appetite quite a bit. He loves to draw and build elaborate cities with his GeoTrax sets and really likes Wheel Of Fortune. I’ll post some pics in the next day or two and maybe a video or two. He chose the costume of fighter pilot for Halloween so he could be a Blue Angel.

WORK

Work is great when I can do it, but Charlie is only in school 28 hours per week, and it is really hard to work when he is home. I try to work after he goes to bed, but I am usually so exhausted by then that I make stupid mistakes and it’s not usually a good idea!

My plan was to turn Blog Solace into an actual business with a registered business name and everything, but it turns out it is better to stay individual. So I am turning Blog Solace into an overall blog help site while still offering my services on that site and SherryDedman.com as an independent contractor/individual. I keep improving my skills and getting more development jobs, so my rates keep going up, which is good. I just wish I could devote more time to it.

I would definitely be a work-a-holic if I didn’t have Charlie to look after. I really love what I do and plan to expand on it as soon as I can, teaching classes and possibly writing an e-book or two, if not an actual book for publication. I like the idea of the e-book, though, because it can be updated regularly – tech books get out-of-date really quickly.

LIFE

Life lately is pretty much just Charlie and Work. I’m not dating (I haven’t got the energy or emotional reserve for it right now, not to mention the time). I’ve fallen behind in my exercise habits, so I cancelled Netflix and got a monthly membership to 24-Hour Fitness for the same price and plan to start catching up on that. I have no travel plans and wow, I guess life is pretty boring, recreationally-speaking.

I guess a lot of what is on my mind is plans for Charlie, plans for my site/blogs, travelling I’d like to do, some development plans I have, etc. Oh, and I would love to work on my novel durning NaNoWriMo – I got a good start on it last year! At this rate, I’ll have it done in 2015. LOL


Thinkin’ Bout A Change

April 6, 2009 by · Leave a Comment
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I’m bored with my blog theme.  Thinking about changing it, but I’m not quite sure what I want to do.  There are some life-stream type WordPress themes out there – might try one of those.  They have built-in widgets and things for your Flickr, YouTube, Twitter, Facebook, etc. streams.  Might be kind of cool.

Visually, I’m thinking dark blues, black, silver and white.  Something starkly different, just for the heck of it!  I’ll have to see what I can come up with.


7 Years

March 23, 2009 by · Leave a Comment
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Good morning!  I just got back from my little drive that I take almost every morning after getting Charlie off to school.  It sort of clears my head and allows me to focus.  Organize my thoughts for the day.  Take in the sights & sounds and see what’s going on in the world.  Plus I usually get a coffee, too, and my mood focuses, improves while the caffeine kicks in!

Then I get home, sit down at my computer, turn on the fireplace and some music and say, “Hello, work-at-home life, I love you!”  As much of a pain in the ass running your own business can be at times (dealing with high-maintenance clients, following up on leads, invoicing, accounting, etc – all things that have nothing to do with the actual work I do), as much of a pain as all that can be, you really can’t beat the lifestyle.  It’s been a really hard road to get to this point (I’m at “breaking even,” but growing steadily), but it’s really worth it.

They say that in 7 years’ time, every cell in your body has died off and been replaced and, strictly physically, you are completely different than you were 7 years ago.  In 7 years’ time, I’ve gone from party girl to mother to mother and small-business owner.

 Interestingly all of those things that lead to a better version of me came about in the darkest period of my life.  Divorce, a horrific court battle with Charlie’s father in which he got away with murder (in a matter of speaking – those who have followed my blog over the years know what I’m talking about), training for medical transcription that sucked the life out of me and never went anywhere, a 6-year relationship that sucked the life and soul out of me and never went anywhere, a short stint at Safeway as an administrative assistant (I actually learned a lot about business at that job, since the tragedies that happened to my supervisors left me virtually running things at times), a misguided move to Iowa for 15 months, and Charlie’s emerging developmental disability that prevented me from going in to work since I couldn’t get care for him.  Thus forcing me to either go on welfare or forge my own business.  I chose the latter.

I’m really lucky that something I was so interested in and taught myself turned/turns out to be in really high demand right now.  It’s also teaching me development skills (and I’m taking online tutorials) in PHP, so if the WordPress jobs ever go away, I’ll at least have development skills to carry me.  Along with project planning, project management experience and the experience of building a successful business.  Yes, I’m pretty lucky.  I do work damned hard and sacrifice a lot, but luck/fate had a hand as well.

On top of all of that, I have been working on some of my character deficits.  The unhealthy ways I’ve dealt with the traumas going on in my life.  The isolation/non-socialization I’ve built (along with major walls).  The negative, fatalistic attitude and more.  I’ve been going to a sort of group therapy and doing actual work on myself, actively, for about 6 weeks now, and I can feel it actually starting to sink in.

So – 7 years – that’s been quite a journey – all of my molecules have changed.  My outlook has changed.  My family/living situation has changed. My vocation/career outlook has changed. Am I still me?  I dunno – I like mostly the same foods, I like the same music, I like the same stupid jokes – I’m still mischievous as hell and like to make people laugh.  My best friend from high school and my sister are still my favorite people in the world.

I guess I’m still me – just new & improved.  New coat of paint – a little structural shoring up.  Yep – It’s Sherryness!


Just A Little Update, Yet Again

February 9, 2009 by · Leave a Comment
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I should really keep this blog updated so I don’t have to do these big updates!

CURRENT EVENTS

Today is the 62nd anniversary of my Mom’s birth. Donna gave me flowers, and we went to lunch in Seattle. We always celebrate Mom’s birthday one way or another since she died and try to be extra-nice to each other. I’m sure she’d be pleased; she was always pleading with us to get along when we were kids! Anyway, Happy Birthday, Mom; we miss you!

CURRENTLY READING:

I started on a book called ‘Labyrinth’ but have had almost no time to try to read it. I haven’t read enough to form any opinion of it yet.

CURRENTLY WORKING ON:

Everything! Business is booming, which is wonderful. I now have a base of regular clients and new work coming in all the time. I’ve been learning PHP/MySQL which really helps increase the number of projects I am qualified to take on. Soon after that I am planning on developing my first WordPress theme from scratch. I’m not the greatest designer there ever was, but I think developing a theme from scratch will teach me a LOT and improve my skills/offerings that much more.

CURRENT MOOD:

Lot’s of inner/spiritual improvements going on. In the last year, I’ve truly gone from simply trying to survive to actually feeling optimistic about life and hoping for things I’d kind of given up on. I’m actively working on the things I need to do to make positive changes and to truly be able to thrive and not just survive.

CURRENT RELATIONSHIP STATUS:

Life being totally single isn’t the most fun thing in the world, but it’s better than being in a bad relationship. I feel I’ve left behind constant stress, bad feelings, distrust and low self-esteem by standing alone and not running back to the “band-aid” relationship I had for so long with the person I was seeing after my divorce. That relationship coming right on top of my divorce left a very bad taste in my mouth for very long time. But I’m slowly but surely beginning to find that that is not all there is out there. And my “Relationship Status” has gone from “Single, Not-Looking” to “Single, and Slowly-Maybe-Opening-Up-To-New-Possibilities.” 🙂

FUTURE THOUGHTS:

All of my plans for my business are coming together with all kinds of exciting things in the works. I’m even branching out soon to Video Tutorials for my blog on Blog Solace for some of the more advanced WordPress plug-ins. This should bring in quite a bit of new traffic.

The trip to San Francisco is still on, but now Donna is planning to come with Charlie & Me for the first 3 days or so. It will be really fun to visit, *with her*, all our old stomping grounds and meander down memory lane. And meeting Brian is a must! If he has time for us between all his acting and VO gigs. 🙂

Anyway, the future looks bright – Exciting and promising possibilities . . .

WRAP-UP

I’m not really feelin’ a wrap-up. Life is fluid; it keeps moving and changing. Here’s to the next event on the horizon!


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